June 2010
2 posts
Everyone needs a Harley
Hi tumblr.
Just looked back at my livejournal, and realized how much ive missed writing. I always come back on here, swearing that i will keep up with this, but it never happens. Once again i will try.
I wish i could explain my mind, my thoughts and everything inbetween. But it seems like when i try to, it doesnt make sense. sometimes i think there may be something wrong. My dad pointed out...
February 2010
2 posts
Constant Work In Progress
All i need right now_
Happiness. pure and simple happiness. No, i dont Need someone to make me this way, all i need to do is find something in my life that can make me feel content. I try, i really do. But i always seem to think pessimisstc thoughts throughout the process. And then i let the past build up my thoughts as well and its obviously “bad” memories of the past. Those things...
January 2010
2 posts
When your all alone in the land of forever, Lay...
I never write anymore, but when i look back at everything i’ve written it takes me back, to that memory. Thats why i need to keep writing, i can capture a moment and keep it.
-Ive been thinking an awful lot about the future lately, i cant decide if im scared or excited, i think its a mixture of both. I’m scared becuase i’m going to be parting ways with people ive grown up with...
July 2009
2 posts
Everything's changin' when I turn around..
I’m in Florida now, at my mom’s house until August 13. Hannah left for North Carolina, and i wish she was here. She is truly one of my best friends, and i’m so glad that i’ve met her. Lately, ive been spending time with my mom, its good because i don’t see her for long periods of time, although i’ve been coming down here from month to month or every other month,...
innocence is key
i miss the days when i was young and innocent. I was always such a goodhearted kid, of course i was obnoxious, annoying and a brat. But i was a little girl who was just being young. I never followed the crowd, i was always a leader, the boss of everything for myself. I always decided what games me and the neighbors would play, playing the mom in the game of house, being the first one to take a...
May 2009
2 posts
I cant quite imagine how i would have felt if i hadn’t done everything i did this past weekend. from thursday being the bamboozle road show, friday being believers never die in philly, and saturday and sunday bamboozle. i had the time of my life. i met amazing people, hungout with great people and loved the atmosphere. sunday’s weather didnt make for a great day but it was enjoyable to...
April 2009
10 posts
i'd be gone without a trace
dear broken dreams and everything in between
take this useless body to a place with meaning
away from all of the troubles that we face
id be gone without a trace
away away
would it be ok, if i say
that the moment i landed here
you had me at hello
days pass and moments too
i cant waste one more minute without you
you brought me off my feet when i was feeling down
and gave me the feeling i...
as i gently close my eyes
i went to the show at the house of blues last night, it was good seeing all of my favorite faces and hanging out.i laughed when trace cyrus and mason musso showed up, i dont know why but its funny, jeeze havent seen their faces in quite some time.the 30 will probably be better though since i’ll be with brooke and jess, things always go good when i’m with them. its awkward being at a...
4/14/09
the way that i’m feeling
i cant coprehend
when i get this way
i look down and say
its too good to be true
i passed it up and i cant
turn back time on the moments
where i had you for myself
in the palm of my hand
you were waiting for me
false signals and lacking
this oppertunity
when i see it eye to eye
and heart to heart
i count the days that i spent
trying to find myself
in...
mada
try and see through my eyes
the crying that is happening inside
i feel like your the one i know well
and nothing ever seems to go right
even though i make so many wrong turns
on this long journey searching for a way home
into your arms
dont be alarmed i made a few mistakes
and i tryed to make them erase
i want you to know
id never tell you a lie
because i made sure it was out in the open
that i...
Royal Carribean- Monarch Of The Seas
so today i got back from one of the best weekends of my life. seriosuly i met some people on this cruise that i will never forget, its a shame when you get so close to a group of people and then you just have to leave, it hurts. i wanna thank everyone who i met for making me smile everyday of the cruise and making everynight really fun. it’s so good to getaway and if i do go on another...
goodbye to you
im leaving in an hour and a half to jfk to the orlando international airport. i havent been there in a year. it’s hard to remember the routine i used to do frequently when flying by myself, i kind of feel independant when i do this. when i get there i dont know what emotions i will feel seeing my mother, sadness, anger, fear? i dont know. i’m nervous.. to see my mom. i’ll...
i want you so bad, its driving me mad
i understand that nobody’s family is perfect. but mine is so messed up. i dont know how i survive in this house at all, im waiting for something to take me away. ontop of that i have something to say to a certain someone because these thoughts are cluttering my mind. i can barely think anymore without thinking of you, i want to speak up. the only reason im scared is because i feel like you...
March 2009
17 posts
take me away
when i go to florida im going to sit at the beach with a notebook and a pen and just write. happy things, good things. nothing sad or depressing. i cant wait to just write…
A test for more is what your striving for, when we...
theres always been a stone in the road for me. something always in the way of what i want. i try and try everytime but im never the one who is won over. there must be something terribly wrong. i strive to be a different girl, to show guys that im not like every other girl out there. I’m nice, it takes alot to get me mad, im understanding, a good listener, I’m fun, I dont mind when you...
i want to know the things your thinking, i want to...
it sucks when you start to develop new feelings for someone new. especially when they have their heart set on another person. i may fall easily but i feel this is something i want to end right, i want to fight for it and win you over.you say you hate mixed signals, but now i dont even know the signs your sending me. i know i only have known you for a short time, but i cant help this feeling. i...
Heaven forbid, well aware of your sins
Well. yesterday was a complete disaster, i decided i wanted a hair change i though maybe some brown low lights would look nice… i was mistaken. i hated it so much. i was so upset with my self, today my sister bleached it back to the hair color i had woken up with yesterday morning, thankfully! i’m fine with it now. I went to olive garden today, so much carbs becuase there was unlimited...
nyc
i havent posted for a week surprsingly. this week was a complete bore, march is just a terrible month, its not too interesting, nothing really is going on. about two and a half weeks it will be over and april will be here! i cannot wait. thats all i really keep saying but i’m really counting down the days.
today i went to the city with jess and my cousin, its good to go there sometimes,...
I couldn't ask for a better place to be
last night made me really happy, the cab boys are such genuine people, and i wouldnt trade meeting them for anything. I just absolutley love going to shows where i know people and i can have a good time. Its become something i need to keep me going, they keep me sane as weird as that may sound. we got home at 6:30 am and made it in time for mcdonalds breakfast, which is my favorite. i cannot wait...
I could comb across the world and never be...
“I hear the forecast ain’t as bad as it seems It should be clearing up soon if only in dreams”
i’m somewhat content today, theres just so much my mind has been processing lately.
*a big decision that was made
*a love that never seemed to die out
*this coming weekend.
It may not seem like alot, but they really are, especially when they are cluttering up my mind.
Im...
“you know who knows me so well?”
“UGH Taylor Fucking Swift.”...”
i can write it better than you've ever felt it
i’m different now and not the same person i once was. It could weigh into something that is good or bad. i dont know if i’ve grown and changed for the better, or if i’ve even grown at all. its hard to see how yourself changes,rather than someone telling you. it takes a while to discover the new things and what you’ve left behind. its difficult. what if i changed for the...
..?
what
have
i
become
in
these
few
short
years?
who am i?
i need that answered.
February 2009
19 posts
i've got the best beating heart in the world
So the plan is i’m hopefully going to Florida during spring break, yes i despise florida, i tell everyone. The only part i like is disney world and universal, and the weather too. i guess im just still a little kid at heart. I dont know why Disney seems to make me really happy, and just forget about everything. I think it’s because me and my mom get to be together, bond, and hangout. i...
nick and norah's infinite playlist
Dear good friend of mine, since sixth grade to be exact. i’ve known you for almost 5 years, and your one person who i can trust and rely on no matter what. it seems as if i made a huge mistake, the timing on this broken rusted clock is never right. i pick the worst of times to make my move, express myself and open my mouth. why cant i just get it right? you have given me butterflies and fast...
The taste of the chase
Today was such an exhausting day, i never get sleep. so i napped for about 3 and a half hours, i suppose it helped. Dont you just hate the feeling when your attracted to someone and all you want is for them to see the same in you? it bugs me when you hold an interest in someone and either they give you no signs if they are interested or if they clearly arent at all. rejection sucks. and that is...
I'm a dreamer, a lover and a thinker
everyday the colors change outside to a different shade, the season goes on and so does life. 24 hours are in one day, but how come a day goes so fast, that in a blink of an eye its over? i dont think theres enough time in one day to stop and see all the beauty it has to offer. if people took the time to think and look at the world theyre living in they could easily point out all of the negatives....
Oh, sweet divine predicament...
So i didn’t post lastnight, but my day wasn’t too exciting. This whole winter break i’m trying not to do so many things involving money so i can save up for bigger things happening in the next couple of months. I’m bored now of course not doing anything, but i will be happy when i have alot of money in the spring. Last night i watched Nick and Norah’s Infinite...
I have decided...
i’m going to re-post some entries from livejournal i have written, that account was private so no one ever read them. i will still post daily entries, but i would also like to post these. i feel its time to get my real feelings across to people.
this entry was written September 22, 2008:
i’m just going to ramble on about some things here: dont you just love it when you hear a song...