Everything’s changin’ when I turn around..
I’m in Florida now, at my mom’s house until August 13. Hannah left for North Carolina, and i wish she was here. She is truly one of my best friends, and i’m so glad that i’ve met her. Lately, ive been spending time with my mom, its good because i don’t see her for long periods of time, although i’ve been coming down here from month to month or every other month, its nice to get away. i miss new york though, i feel like im missing out on the summer with everyone up there. Although i think constantly about moving here, i dont think i’d be able to. My whole life was created in New York, my friends, memories, dreams, crushes, everything is there. I do want to leave sooner or later, but not yet, i feel like things still need to be done there.
Im starting to think about how exactly i want 2010 to be, i always set out the same goals.. meet someone special, have luck, good times and for things to run smoothly. But i’ve realized all of the bumps in the road, the things that throw me aside, are the things that stick in my memory. The things i remember and the things that shape the future i hold. nothing can be perfect, but if things mend together and seem to be okay, thats fine, thats the way it should be.
what does it take to find the right guy or girl for yourself? STOP LOOKING. thats the wise advice i get from almost everyone. why is it that one guy, who is really special to me tells me how down to earth and chill i am, and how there should be alot more girls like me.. and i cant find anyone else that see’s that? maybe its because some people dont stick around long enough to learn more about me, maybe its because i have alot to offer but dont know how to show it? gee, i wish i could show one special guy the true me.
ALL I SAY is I WISH.. I WISH.. I WISH.. why cant life be like a disney movie, where you wish and all of your dreams come true?
haha oh yeah this is reality.
